The Death of Innocence

by Evil Adam

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1.	Innocence Through Guilt 02:55	lyrics	buy track
This is so hard for me, I've always been so strong. Though the weeks have flown right by, these minutes feel so long. I thought back on it all And still there was no way To change a single fucking thing from putting me here today. Please don't kill me. I'm just not ready to go. There's no heaven, you see, and just dirt miles below. Please don't kill me. I'm just not ready to go. There's no heaven, you see, and just dirt for miles below. Don't give me looks like that. When who knows what you've done? Just because you're on that side of the glass doesn't mean that you have won. Who are you to judge? We both are the same, Except that by pulling that switch It means you're getting paid. Please don't kill me. I'm just not ready to go. There's no heaven, you see, and just dirt miles below. Please don't kill me. I'm just not ready to go. There's no heaven, you see, and just dirt for miles below. Now I don't have that much to say, or all the answers now but i know what I've done. And I swear they all got exactly what they wanted from me. So how was I wrong? Please don't kill me. I'm just not ready to go. There's no heaven, you see, and just dirt miles below. Please don't kill me. I'm just not ready to go. There's no heaven, you see, and just dirt for miles below.
2.	Innocence Through Apathy 04:02	lyrics	buy track
The trivial and weak have strength some how, Only when it is you who allow, them to take over all that you care about. The superficial feelings are no longer true to you now. And it feels okay when you let them run away, and it seems all right when you don't put up a fight. An image of what life is supposed to be, Is clouded by hopes and dreams of being free. A prisoner inside your home is what you are, Happiness just seems so small when you are still so far. And it feels okay when you let it fall away, and it seems all right when you don't put up a fight. Let it leave today, you won't miss it anyway. Nothing can go right if you hold on it so tight. And it feels okay when you let it fall away, and it seems all right when you don't put up a fight. Let it leave today, you won't miss it anyway. Nothing can go right if you hold on it so tight.
3.	Hidden Hatred 03:00	lyrics	buy track
You threw it all aside And feel the same. You know it's not your fault, Yet you still feel the blame. This world is just not big enough For both of us: The ones that bend their will to you And ones that bend your trust. There are no stupid questions here, Just stupid answers, so don't live in inquisitive fear. There is no love left for you here, Just hidden hatred and a broken home for you my dear. This is your favorite place, To scream and yell. Your anger feeds your mood and You've never looked so well. The worse you make us feel The bigger smile you grow, No better power trip than Stepping on all those you know. There are no stupid questions here, Just stupid answers, so don't live in inquisitive fear. There is no love left for you here, Just hidden hatred and a broken home for you my dear. I hate the person I've become. I hate the taste of my own blood. I hate the waste of time this was. I hate it all and just because, I hate the way you made me act. I hate your face. I hate your name. I hate the days I feel so fucked. I hate this place that I am stuck. There are no stupid questions here, Just stupid answers, so don't live in inquisitive fear. There is no love left for you here, Just hidden hatred and a broken home for you my dear.
4.	The Only Thing You Can Take When You Die Is Someone Else Along For The Ride 04:23	lyrics	buy track
Revenge is sweetest if its never seen Don't let them see you coming Don't let them hear a thing. The best parts of my life revolve around your death. There's nothing like stealing your last undeserved breath. I can't forgive you, I can't forgive myself. For everything I've done to you and everybody else. I know it wasn't wrong, but I know you weren't right. That's why I'm ending both of us On this coldeset of nights. Premeditation Or spontaneity? No matter what I choose You have the same destiny. A cold uncaring life, A slow and painful death. I'll reap what you sow, and you will have nothing left. I can't forgive you, I can't forgive myself. For everything I've done to you and everybody else. I know it wasn't wrong, but I know you weren't right. That's why I'm ending both of us On this coldeset of nights. Vengeance is your body served cold, beaten and bloody. So dead now. The world is bleakest, When you're about to end. There's no one to save you, No last rescue attempt. No one will miss you. Except those you have fooled. But they never knew you Like I did as your blood cools. I can't forgive you, I can't forgive myself. For everything I've done to you and everybody else. I know it wasn't wrong, but I know you weren't right. That's why I'm ending both of us On this coldeset of nights. Vengeance is your body served cold, beaten and bloody. So dead now.
5.	Pray Or Be Prey 04:54	lyrics	buy track
Maybe we'll all catch fire For doing things we're yearning. A world so uninspired, We've ceased our need for learning. Evolve or you'll expire. This world won't wait on turning. Your views are dark and dire. Illuminate them by burning. Please don't speak for me. I don't silence easily. Braindead to the Nth degree, Dogma hinders society. Tell me what I should do With this flesh I was born with. These rights of ours are gone. Decisions based on old myth. Out of touch, out of time, So damn anachronistic. They want the right to kill, But we can't choose who we sleep with. Please don't speak for me. I don't silence easily. Braindead to the Nth degree, Dogma hinders society. We're free to do as you say, We're free to die for your country. We're free to pray or be prey. We're free to leave, obey to stay. We're free to do as you say, We're free to die for your country. We're free to pray or be prey. We're free to leave, obey to stay. Please don't speak for me. I don't silence easily. Braindead to the Nth degree, Dogma hinders society. Another choice to make. But no choice is worth choosing. No matter who we choose We always wind up losing. Large sums will motivate, The throngs of sheep will follow. The thinking beings watch The march of heads so hollow. Please don't speak for me. I don't silence easily. Braindead to the Nth degree, Dogma hinders society. We're free to do as you say, We're free to die for your country. We're free to pray or be prey. We're free to leave, obey to stay. We're free to do as you say, We're free to die for your country. We're free to pray or be prey. We're free to leave, obey to stay.
6.	Mechanically Separated 03:01	lyrics	buy track
I'm not dead I'm disconnected. Instruments of your distraction. The alive are all infected, by a lack of interaction. I won't care if you don't live to see me tomorrow. I won't feel the pain of loss or the hurt of sorrow. I'm not dead I'm tired of living In a world so full of hatred. There is no sense in forgiving Those of which who's time we've wasted. I won't care if you don't live to see me tomorrow. I won't feel the pain of loss or the hurt of sorrow. We decide to turn the other cheek. Support the strong and damn the weak. We will buy the world to give away The hope of peace and better days I'm not you, you're barely human. I extract your lies from truth while you subsist on things unproven. Backwards is your only movment. I won't care if you don't live to see me tomorrow. I won't feel the pain of loss or the hurt of sorrow. We decide to turn the other cheek. Support the strong and damn the weak. We will buy the world to give away The hope of peace and better days These are our lives to destroy. These are our lives to destroy.
7.	Palinopsia 02:43	lyrics	buy track
One more step to take before another ledge is jumped. One more bone to break before I'm left with just a stump. I can't see anything in front of me and I'm not blind. I can't hear anything outside of me with this noisy mind. Please yourself by leaving. I'd never ask a leech to stay. One more hand to shake before another deal is struck. One more smile to fake before you comfort those you fuck. I can't taste anything with all the shit left in my mouth. I can't feel anything except everything is going south. Include me in your grieving, Because the weather's nice today. One slap is all it takes for me to lose my sympathy One slap is all it takes for you to get the worst of me. One slap is all it takes for me to lose my sympathy One slap is all it takes for you to get the worst of me.
8.	Pride (In The Name Of Hate) 03:55	lyrics	buy track
I woke up this morning in love with myself, Then I realized I'm just in hate with everyone else. Put me back on the shelf. I don't know who you expected to get, But my parade is rained out and my community blanket is perpetually wet. Have you listened to your own advice? Let the blood in your veins become ice? Can you forgive people for who they are? Is it worse to blame them for your scars? Have you listened to your own advice? Have you had to kneel in uncooked rice? Can you forgive yourself for who you are? Can we blame you for all of our scars? You don't need a person to save you from me, But you might need someone to keep you from feeling guilty. Your flower is wilting. I never promised you a goddamn thing, But you took it to mean that the birds outside would sing. Even during the rain. Have you listened to your own advice? Let the blood in your veins become ice? Can you forgive people for who they are? Is it worse to blame them for your scars? Have you listened to your own advice? Have you had to kneel in uncooked rice? Can you forgive yourself for who you are? Can we blame you for all of our scars?

about

It started off as a concept album about murder, death, destruction, and horror, and then very quickly turned into a eulogy to who I felt I was, and what I was becoming.I started writing it right as things in my life were going very wrong and terrible things were happening. I still think some of the best songs I ever wrote are on this one, but I wish I had the time and energy to be able to finish the concept of what this originally was as a fictional story that connected from song to song. It was maybe too ambitious but hopefully, i can revisit that idea for future work.

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released March 1, 2024

Rene Rosa - all words and music

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Evil Adam Jersey City

Evil Adam is a catchy metal-ish music project started by Rene Rosa and joined in by the best musicians and friends that would dare play the stuff live. The live act is on pause now, but new recordings are being released regularly.